Don't worry about the world ending today. It's already tomorrow in Australia.

chrismakkah @ 2007-07-20T17:31:00

2007-07-20T22:02:49Z

Oh what can happen in a year. Who ever said we were a perfect match lied through their teeth. They obviously knew nothing of my nature. I can't stay in one place or with one person long enough to get attached. Thanks old flames, you really burnt me badly. Kevin was like the ice to cool the burn, but he just wasn't cold enough. I need the whole Antarctic not just one cube. Cube or not, he is a great person who deserved more from me. This leads me to try and be friends, but how can you be friends with someone who broke your heart?

A year has held a lot in store for me. Scholarly success, new friendships, broke friendships, lessons learned, lessons taught, and a lack of a decent love life. Most noticably was an experience in London I encountered.. oh London was something else. I'll probably regret it in years to come, but at least I learned something about myself. I'm really not who I thought I was, but at least I'm content with who I am.

Oh and if it's any consilation, I'm back with the second biggest flame. Don't worry, I'm have the fire department on speed dial...

it's a "i wanna give it all away" day

2006-08-28T01:32:39Z

"I've got dreams and aspirations, and I'm pretty good at conversations. I've got a heart I want to give, but I need someone to share it with..."

it's a "own up you pussy" day

2006-04-25T21:24:08Z

Existentialism [ ègzi sténsh'l ìzzem, èksi sténsh'l ìzzem ], Noun, Philosophical movement centered on individual existence: a philosophical movement begun in the 19th century that denies that the universe has any intrinsic meaning or purpose. It requires people to take responsibility for their own actions and shape their own destinies.

it's a "did i really see him?" day

2006-03-18T00:41:27Z

AAR, HH, FOB and FFTL in concert. I was in the crowd. Right up front center stage. You don't feel the same until you go to one yourself; listneing to music via ear buds is not the same as from the actual amp. But what's so great? How about Tyson Ritter and Nick Wheeler? Could you make a teenage girl's dream come true anymore? I doubt without a fairy-godmother such bliss could happen. So Cinderella, you may have beaten me this time but did you ever see sweat drip off Tyson Ritter's forehead? No, all you did was lose an expensive glass shoe!

But what is an experience without documentation? Well, just the experience, and that's all I have because my camera died. Speaking of dying, I almost passed out, which I've never legitimately fainted before. The guy next to me caught me falling, and I crowd surfed out.

What do you do when your Tessa goes missing? You listen to wise-ass kids crack jokes: "Lady shove it," "Tessa's in my pants," "I'm trampling on her bitch!" Oh what every frightened mother wants to hear... where did Tessa end up? I haven't a clue, maybe she trampled the wise-ass, or maybe she really was in his pants. Either way my attention was quickly changed to Tyson, because who cares about anything when he's in the room?

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-21T17:50:00

2006-02-21T22:54:42Z

Sunday my aunt and omi came from conn. Loverly, i love them. We went out for pizza, and antiques and shopping (kinda). Then last night i slept over Ree's love shack, and actually listened to the B-52s! We have so much fun i love it! Tonight is MOM + LAURA night, i havent seen her in a while, and i miss her, haha. wellll, tomorrow if im not with ree, im going to call the boysss, or maybe KATRINA! i bet shed like that, when i see her, im gonna give her a kiss =)

MIXTAPE+SALAD=FUNLOVIN'

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-18T19:02:00

2006-02-19T00:09:54Z

Last weekend i went to see Big Mama's House 2 with justin, matt, ben, eric and REE! and then Ree spent the night, gosh we had a bunch of fun. Last night i went to the movies again with all of them BUT the person that runs the movie thing broke it or somethign so we didnt get to see When a Stranger Calls. and Ree spent the night again =) We went shopping today. I got three shirts, one tank top that blue and has sequins and a grey shirt and a brown one with buttons and stuff by Jessica Simpson, ooo lala. haha, and i got a pair of fuzzy boots, that i LOVE, and arm warmers, not leg, arm warmers. I have to do my take home test, but i have all week, so whatever! anyways, i hate updating this puppy, so, gah, the end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-10T18:49:00

2006-02-10T23:43:10Z

god finally its the weekend, it seemed like f-o-r-e-v-e-r! so katrina seemed pissed when i told her i wasnt going to the concert with her, but too bad for her. i mean she was going with josh and then invited me. i would hate to be with her and josh, i hated it when we were together before i kinda stopped having a life, haha. [ive been like busy and overwhelmed and tired so im late to school and from school im off doing other things so i never see her, or anyone for that matter] but anyways id never have my boyfriend and her, thats just ridiculously gay, seriously. shes annoying sometimes, hahaha. well school, boring, hard, im failing science... still! havent seen or heard from brandon since december! fuckin WHAT i know! crazy. matt ben and i might be hanging out this weekend, and vacation, hopefully. and I DID CLIMBING IN GYM, i was good too. but my volleyball skills yeaterday, well a snake tied in a knot could have done better!

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-06T19:34:00

2006-02-07T00:34:51Z

I LET YOU SEE A SIDE OF ME THE I DON'T SHARE WITH ANYONE.
PROMISES ARE JUST WORDS UNLESS THEY ARE FULFILLED.
YOU KNEW FROM THE BEGINNIG ALL I HAD TO OFFER YOU WAS MY HEART,
I'M SORRY THAT WASN'T ENOUGHT.
SO WE'LL GO ON OUR WAYS AND HOPEFULLY YOU'LL REMEMBER THE THINGS I'VE TOLD YOU.
HOPEFULLY, YOU'LL UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING I SAID WAS IN SINCERITY.
A BROKEN HEART IS NOT WHAT I WANTED FROM THIS, BUT I GUESS I'VE LEARNED FROM MY MISTAKES.
I DON'T CONSIDER THIS A MISTAKE,
I JUST WISH THE STORY DIDN'T END THIS WAY.
BECAUSE IM STILL INLOVE WITH THE PERSON WHO HELPED ME WRITE IT.

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-06T18:03:00

2006-02-06T23:04:29Z

FAKE IS THE NEW TREND
AND SHES ALL THE FUCKING RAGE

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-06T06:01:00

2006-02-06T23:03:08Z

ME + REE = AAR

♥

chrismakkah @ 2006-02-03T18:27:00

2006-02-03T23:32:41Z

so ummm. swicthed classes, im with jackey barley and justin now. which is pretty kick toushe, if i do say so myself. gym was pretty funny today, we did tug of war and ummm well my team only won one game but we were pulling and some kid was yelling at jasmine to pull harder and spit on her, it was pretty funny at the time. i was kinda bummed to leave kasey and jessica in geometry because theyre so entertaining but then i saw they were in my gym class so all is well. josh thinks brandon is a hottie, and doesnt believe we dated. and hes be sucking real badly lately because hes been a jackass and i wanna shove a potato up his butt so he cant have buttsex anymore, haha. anyways, angela blew me off to hang out with a boy, great huh? yeah, so thats it. the end?

AAR MARCH 16 WITH REE AND TERPINA ♥

*EDIT*

angela called. we hung out. went shopping. had fun. the norm. the end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-30T18:45:00

2006-01-30T23:47:26Z

went shopping this weekend =) can you say loverly, i can! AAR on the 16thh of march, yey! with my loverly Terpina who i havent hung out with in, count it, 3 months. oh gosh i cant even wait, it shall be stellar! the end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-27T18:44:00

2006-01-30T23:45:10Z

so umm mom is mad at me. ive been grounded for a while now, and shes not letting me use the phone, computer (which i am now), cell phone or hang out with friends. i cant say what went on but boy, gosh, was she mad!

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-25T17:37:00

2006-01-25T22:40:13Z

Yesterday was finals it was also my dads birthday. then today i got out even earlier than yeserday, 9:15 and went home, jake drove me. im gona miss him, haha. sunday was the sim meet, i kicked ass in my heat, i won. pretty sweet. swimmings over. first semester is over. kinda null around here, gah. i need to shower too, haha. the end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-20T21:39:00

2006-01-21T02:50:05Z

Yesterday was Gregs Birthday, hes 17! We went out for dinner and then there was like half an hour before my swim practice so mom and i went shopping, i found no shirts to fit over my boobs. which is surprising cause they arent big, at all! Had practice, we played Ultimate Frisbee in the water and with a holla-hoop. I sucked.

Today I had school, and it was normal. I slept through a few classes and im still really tired. Then i came home and did chores and then watched some WELCOMETOTHEOCBITCHES! hahaha. Then at 6 i went to alyssa and hung out with the loverly ladies and gentlemen of the swim team. They are pretty great. I just got back. Did shirts, ate pizza, had rap battles, watch dustin on camera with matt and andrew almost getting annihilated with aerosol cans in a bonfire, and other stuff. Gwen is beyond the best rapper ever, she just like killed everyone, it was awesome. Im gonna be really sad when Sunday come cause its my last meet, and yesterday was my last practice. so no details about Alyssas because no one is special enough to know what goes on. And no one should ever smell matts feet, ohmygosh. The end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-13T15:12:00

2006-01-13T20:23:35Z

im sick, again. ive been sick like a billion times this year, its crazy. jeremy and i had a tic tac toe tournament after our Algebra test (which i think i did loverly on) and he kicked my toushe! nate and andrew are definetly the greatest, haha i l-o-v-e them! haha and richard, hes pretty stellar. brandon sat with us in study hall, i forgot how flippin funny and great that kid is, wow. except we were writing on the table and i wrote i ♥ you and corey wrote ugly with an arrow pointed to me and then they started writing mean things like slut, whore and lesbo. gosh it got me so pissed, and kinda sad =/ and i know brandon was foolin but i can never tell with corey. he made a sweet "dices" and ben colored all over and exploded the highlighter all over the table and they got a spot on my bag, my semi-new bag! justin and i were remembering the good old days from shawnee (?), pretty kick toushe. ummm sam drove me home again and jake wasnt there today =/ pretty non kick toushe. well i have to go to the store and get a shirts so the ladies and gentlemen and i can decorate them tonight at Alyssa's house. And find carb-y food, for tonights carb-y night. and tomorrow at like 2:30, meet in portsmouth, but i heard form a few different people and Z and on the 10 oclock news the portsmouth swim team has cancled the rest of their season due to most of them failing their drugtests / gettingdrunkandpeoplefindingoutandgettingthemintrouble. oh well one less team to lose against, haha, jay slash kay. werd. the end.

EDIT

just got home from alyssas. pretty sweet. hang out ate carbs! haha. gwen went home with andrew to get guess that phrase game thing and came back with some other kid, haha. played guess that phrase, i kicked toushe (kinda, a little). the phrase for one time was 'vanilla extract' and so i was like "uhhh, ummm you have it in a tiny bottle and add it so some recipes" and a few people guessed like alcohol and matt goes "VANILLA EXTRACT!" and no one knows how but the kid kicks ass, and on the hardest ones, haha. decorated my shirt which andrew wrote on it "I ♥ Andy B" and it got all messed up from his non looking heart so Gwen and i trying to correct it, but it looks kinda bad, haha. then again everyones does. and jas and i wrote love notes on eachothers shirts. matt sat on dustin and me so i gave him the sweetest wedgie! hes like "im gonna give you a wedgie in your suit tomorrow!". cause its very tight, like wayyyy tight. so tomorrow should be pretty stellar i guess. thats it. the end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-10T18:14:00

2006-01-10T23:20:46Z

nothing to exciting. swim is taking up this whole week, which kinda sucks because it usually takes up like half, and i hate that. i studied all night last thursday for a latin test and even skipped practice and all other stuff/work. but i ended up failing anyways. tomrrow is early release and instead of doing whatever i have a m-e-e-t, but its in durham which is rather goooood. i have like no one that i talk to anymore, like katrina and i talk like 2 minutes a day and angela and i just kinda dont at all same with emma, and i only talk to j at swim and during lunch for everyone else. so it kinda sucks ass. i have like no friends or even a life cause im so busy lately, haha, i feel pathedic. like one of those yu-gi-oh obsessed geeky kids that only steps outside to get to the bus stop, haha. oh well. the end.

chrismakkah @ 2006-01-02T09:31:00

2006-01-02T14:32:29Z

Happy New Year

A few back Timothy Jordan killed himself =/ So far this year, and its only been like one day, has sucked [not bacause of Timothy Jordan, that was last year]. So I hope it wont continue. The End.

Quick Update

2005-12-28T16:04:08Z

Friday i didnt go to school, cause im cool. christmas was fun and loverly, christmas eve i spent with the extended family. monday emma and i went shopping, and she slept over and she stayed until today since her rents were on vaca without her, haha. i leave for conn tomorrow. the end.

ELTON JOHN IS MARRIED!

2005-12-22T02:20:17Z

ELTON JOHN IS MARRIED NOW BITCH!

saturday i had a meet beat my time by like 2 seconds. tuesday i left school early and went with the ladies and gentlemen to the swim meet in londonderry. missed my time by 0.74 which isnt horrible. but im thinkin about going into the 100, id have to practice it a bit first though. i mean i can do it but id have to still practice it. i went over jens house today with ree. we did our gingerbread man project. it was very stellar, although the cookies we made for it were really bland, but once icing was on em they were yummy. i had one! got prgress reports too! so latin is a little down but besides that im all good. GOOD! well thats all. the end.

Health: 98
Algebra: 95
Latin: 88

chrismakkah @ 2005-12-19T16:20:00

2005-12-19T21:23:50Z

wrapped presents and watched christmas movies with my mom over the weekend. had my meet, i did pretty well, i dont know my times though, haha. although our relay team sucked because by the time the thrid person ended their swim the other teams were done. so we lost that one, FUCK. had a sign in and then went to study hall, so i didnt do a lot. got a 91 in alegbra. played uno with corey. I SPANKED HIM! (not litteraly). i was feeling down because of stuff going on lately. and josh wasnt making it any better. the end.

chrismakkah @ 2005-12-16T21:15:00

2005-12-17T02:22:54Z

snow day today which meant no meet. which means tomorrow i have to get up early and go to my rescheduled meet. i watched a buttload of movies and wrapped christmas presents and thats it. then on sunday im shopping and shit, so thatll be sweet. and christmas vacation is in a week and thatll be even sweeter. nothing exciting lately. been kinda down.

LAME!

2005-12-14T23:07:52Z

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
Well it was shit and yeah sometimes it was pretty kick ass. So as a whole it’d be adverage to good.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
I can’t pick one. But there are a few that definetly stand out.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
There was a little bit of hurt in october =/ and a few other parts of the year.

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
Home, pathedic yes but my plans canceled on me.

5) Who were you with?
Myself =/

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
Conn.

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
Family

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005?
I don't remember what it was…?

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006?
I’m not gonna make one, that way I can’t fail it.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
it wasn’t love, but something similar.

11) If yes, with who?
Everyone knows, I won’t state the name just so I save the embarassement, haha.

12) If yes, do they know?
I don’t know?

13) Are you still in love with them?
Happily, I can say no.

14) Do you regret it?
Yeah, a lot.

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
Yes.

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
GOD YES!

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
I don’t know, ummm my hero, hahaha actually I cant pick!

18) What was your favorite month of 2005?
November, I think, or maybe May/June-ish.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
Nope

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
Like 6 or 7?

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
Kinda.

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
GOD YES!

23) What were your favorite movies that you saw in 2005?
Star Wars 3, Saw 2 and Harry Potter!

24) What was your favorite song from 2005?
It ends tonight by AAR or Bohemian Like you by Dandy Warhols and two others that arent from ’05 but I heard them this year, A year from now by Across Five Aprils and Lonely September by Plain White Ts.

25) What was your favorite record from 2005?
AAR move along!

26) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
ummmm lemme count…. NONE!

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Well I don't have any to choose from so yeah!

28) did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005?
Nah.

29) did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
Not a lot.

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
Katrina, hahaha Jay slash kay!

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Kinda, more of a regret not really ashamed.

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
“I love you”

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
Obviously.

35) Did someone treat you badly in 2005?
Obviously.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005?
Quite a bit!

37) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
None so far.

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Oh I don’t think I have one.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something what would it be? I don’t know.

40) What are your plans for 2006?
Just to keep on keeping on! Hahaha, actually I don’t have any.

So if anyone hadnt figured this out questions 10, 11, 12, 13 and 14 were about The Erv Man. So im going to edit them because ive realized they werent completely true. I was kinda harsh on a fewbut thats cause i was pissed and i didnt regret at all. i didnt. so okay here it is...

10) Did you fall in love in 2005?
something very similar

11) If yes, with who?
Ervin Fazekas

12) If yes, do they know?
He knew

13) Are you still in love with them?
No, i dont think so. but ill never forget him either.

14) Do you regret it?
no, i dont.

chrismakkah @ 2005-12-12T21:01:00

2005-12-13T02:05:56Z

friday was a snowday. i hung out all weekend doing nothing except hanging out with greg. dad and i havent done anything lately so we went to see harry potter. i cried, pathedic yes, but hey i cried during star wars too. i mean when that cedric diggory died, i died too! haha jay slash kay. werd. im not that much of a nerd. but today i had a normal day. passed another algebra test and failed another latin test, go laura! played uno, ben and corey cheated the whole time, and i never knew. im gonna kick there toushes tomorrow in uno, theyre getting "powed" hahahaha. i dont even know if thats a word, jake said it today. i slept when i got home and well thats it. tootles, the end.

chrismakkah @ 2005-12-08T16:06:00

2005-12-08T21:12:14Z

today 25 years ago the fabulous john lennon died,.

DECORATED THE CHRISTMAS TREE LAST NIGHT! late to school this morning. josh is mad at me cause i made fun of him and his boyfriend(s). well it was more like he said he always has hotter boyfriends than me and i disagreed and then hes like "no they all are hotter" and said something like "well you meet them on the internet, so have they ever actually seen you?" and he got all offended that i called him ugly.oh well. studyhall was fun, played some more uno, but douches were there so i went and sat with kyle and played uno with him jake and corey joined in, it was a lot better then all the dumb people. came home and i should study for latin tomorrow but i dont feel like it. i dont really want to go to practice, ive been sucking really badly lately. but i have a meet tomorrow if school isnt cancelled. which i kinda want it to be, but then again i dont and i dont think it will be anyways. well here is a link to a trailor for a movie i wanna see. its with (my favorite actor) heath ledger and jake gyllenhaal, and i thought it was gonna be loverly cause of heath, but i guess they fall in love? i know weird gay movie, but hey, both guys are hott, so whatever! the end.